Flight To Freedom

I wrote a short story the other day based on a dream. I found such lessons involved from the ability to have good things come my way based on allowing them in, to the obsticles when it’s about the "don’t want".

But – you can judge for yourself :)

Enjoy.

Flight To Freedom

A short story by Kira Wagner

It was late in the evening and, as the sun was setting, a few golden rays lingered on the distant mountainside. Skylar found her thoughts filled with the desire to feel the warmth of the sun and she began to move.

She was flying again. It was different this time. This evening she didn’t “think” about how to start or how it would look, nothing about how different she wanted it to be. Skylar just started moving toward the light.

Moving through the trees and the branches she kept going up when she noticed a few power lines. Compared to the myriad of branches in the trees, these were nothing

As she flew through the trees gravitating toward the fading sunlight Skylar found herself confronted with an intense maze of power lines, so thick she had to pull them apart. Using her hands to get through them she thought of the possibility of electrocution. But, nothing happened and she found herself surprised at that instant.

It was then that she noticed the power lines were all connected by very thin, sheer gauze. It was quite strong, so much so that she couldn’t tear it to get beyond it

Skylar could see the sunlight still brilliant in the distance.

She needed to get through this maze to get to the light. Wanting an opening it appeared before her. A huge gap suddenly existed between two of the heavy power lines so she simply flew through. Who was she to question the opportunity right in front of her?

As she continued upward, attempting to stay clear of any further obstacles, it grew very dark.

She was looking for the sun and couldn’t find it. She’d lost sight of it.

Suddenly Skylar was confronted with a ceiling – slatted boards and quite well made – but a ceiling all the same.

She had made it through obstacles before on other journeys but this – this one was different. She didn’t feel that she could get through this. She could feel her heart start to pound in her chest and even in the absence of the sun’s warming glow she began to sweat. It was as if her body began to thrum with the beat of a bass drum.

Skylar was afraid. She wasn’t going to make it through.

Then she heard a still small voice reminding her that she had made it before. Ever so gently it was reminding her to remain calm.

She knew there was a way if she just looked so she stopped flying around like a darting humming bird. Taking in a breath she saw it. In that instant, as she looked where she had last noticed the sun, there were three doors contained within a glass wall.

The sunlight was on the other side.

Her eyes were drawn to a massive, aged padlock lock on one of the doors. Momentarily she felt the fear that she would have to return…to go back.

In that instance she noticed the lock was on the door marked “in”.

There were two doors that led “out”. Both had a wide lever to open them that simply said “push”.

Noticing that the sunlight was stronger on the door on the left she moved forward toward that one, pushed on the lever and went through.

Once on the other side Skylar drank in the sun as it shone brilliantly against a bright blue sky. She basked in the air as it had that fresh spring morning smell of green grass, sweet spring flowers and that damp fragrance of sun evaporating the early morning dew.

Looking around she had the feeling that this was an anachronistic experience. As Dorothy said to Toto in the Wizard of Oz, “Toto, I don’t think we’re in Kansas any more.”

Somehow tonight’s flight took her “through” to a different place and time altogether.

It wasn’t that things really looked any different. In fact, in the distance she could see a sprawling city with cars filling the streets and lights promoting the myriad of businesses for the millions of people bustling about.

Now Skylar never went flying with anyone. She never talked about it. Her nocturnal flights had been just that—contained within that evening and all undercover of the starry night sky. So in that sense this whole experience was out of the norm but she wasn’t prepared for what she saw next.

She gazed up. Looking higher into the sky and she saw a hole. Skylar didn’t know what she expected after the ceiling she had just left behind but it wasn’t this. Here was a vast unfinished air duct. A hole was one thing. It could have been an anomaly like a black hole—she was well aware of the myriad of things she didn’t know but this? An air duct? In the sky?

She could see everything—the wood frame partially hidden behind white clouds, yellow insulation encased in brown paper on either side, the round silver tubing of the duct itself…and…an airplane that was flying into the tubing. A plane that appeared microscopic against the enormity of the air duct.

As she stared she found herself wondering what this was all about.

It was as if this were a part of life that challenged her saying, “Come, leave your journey and spend a lifetime figuring out why I’m here.”

It was then that she knew this was a mystery for another day, another time. It wasn’t important to know why the air duct appeared in this hole in the say. Nor was it wasn’t important, right now, to understand why that plane chose to take that route.

This was a mystery to explore another day.

Nothing mattered in that moment except the feeling of the warmth of the sun and the freedom in this moment to “be”.

Skylar wanted to share this feeling, this event with someone. She found herself thinking how wonderful it would feel to have someone join her in this experience. As she turned to fly home she noticed that the return trip seemed instantaneous compared to the journey toward the sunlight.

She had been thinking about Peter and the next thing she knew—she could see him standing there—off in the distance, playing with his granddaughter Susan.

Settling down on the sidewalk Skylar walked up to Peter telling him that there was something she wanted to share with him. She asked him if he would join her for “just a few minutes”.

Sending Emily up to the house they walked off across the street to a park surrounded by trees. It was quiet and no one in sight.

Reaching a grassy knoll Peter asked what this was all about and for a minute Skylar was afraid that it wouldn’t work with someone with her. Every previous flight had been when she was alone, at nighttime, everyone was around her was asleep.

Again a kind of peace that came over her, that calm sense of just “being” and she looked at the top of the trees seeing the stars in the distance and she was moving…up.

Level with the top of the trees Skylar stopped and hovered. Looking down at Peter she smiled asking him to join her.

At first a wistful smile played across his face. She knew that look – how often had she had it when there was something she wanted and yet didn’t believe she had the right to possess it.

Then she noticed a worried look in his eyes. She could hear his voice cut clearly though the silence as he said, “That’s not right, you shouldn’t do that”. He turned away to go home. He didn’t tell her to stop. He didn’t say to come back. He only told her she shouldn’t be doing what she was already doing.

She knew that he could do it. Skylar knew that he could fly too, and somehow she knew that he knew it.

She also knew that he didn’t want to. He never would fly because of his choice. His family couldn’t fly because they didn’t believe that they could. He wouldn’t leave them behind so he would never even try.

Skylar felt herself starting to drift back toward the ground

For a third time that evening she was afraid. Afraid this time that, she couldn’t fly, that if she continued to fly she would be leaving her family behind.

She realized she didn’t want to hurt anyone and she wanted the approval. In that instant, she knew that the desire for approval was the greatest obstacle she was facing. She knew that she didn’t need his approval to fly, she loved the feeling. She loved the freedom. She loved the warmth of the sun and always being able to feel it fill her with energy and life.

The sun warmed her skin and she felt secure in its “touch”. She loved the feel of the tree tops and running her hands through the leaves and branches. She loved the crystal clear view of the stars with nothing between us.

If she always had to have his or others approval she would never be free.

Skylar smiled then noticing she was till in the air. She had stopped descending.

As she watched Peter walk towards home he turned once and smiled. No words but a look that said everything and then she turned and flew away.

Skylar could fly and people could see her—or not—it didn’t matter any more. She knew it was about letting others choose their path, about being able to be one with the universe, to experience in a grand way, all of the joys that life has to offer.

She had allowed herself to accept her freedom.

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The Story is Changed – Dreams

OK – this one is really more about talking to myself because I don’t totally understand this dream.

  • I’m with my husband and other family members, maybe my kids and there is a baby with us. We’re in an Arabic country, in some temple or holy place. There are two knives there that the people worship. The problem is that something has gotten lost in the story over the centuries and the people of the country are using the knives as a symbol to encourage war. Both knives are sheathed in beautiful green marble with matching handles. One is straight and the other is curved and they are both about 2 ft. long.
  • Somehow I know that if the knives are gone their energy will change so I set out to steal them. It’s as if the knives confirm the right of war – without their presence they will have to stop long enough to talk. I know I can get in to the holy place but getting out with the knives is another story.
  • I slip the knives inside of my coat – kind of a Matrix kind of looking job – and manage to get out of the room. At the entrance to the building there are guards – standing in groups of 2 or 3 in various locations so my husband says that he’ll take care of them and my son and daughter are to wait with me until he draws them off.
  • He takes the baby and bundles it up so that it doesn’t look like a baby at all. In fact it looks as if he is holding something that he is trying to hide. He takes off out the front entrance and down the stairs and sure enough the guards all follow him.
  • We walk out and proceed to walk past a van that has some kind of surveillance equipment in it and manage to reach in and reboot the system so that the last several minutes of the recording are lost and we walk off knowing that it’s OK now.

That’s when I woke up.

Somehow it is symbolic of – something – and this one is going to take some time to uncover. Feel free to comment :) as it seems presumptuous that I’m going to stop some kind of war that easily :)

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Just Get Started

Don’t you just love it when you talk to yourself in a dream? I guess one of the keys is – do you (or more importantly "I") listen?

  • Last night’s first dream had to do with music. A guitar player with a group of singers. Things weren’t coming together very well for the group and I was there coaching them. I asked them to start over with one of their songs. The guitarist started playing so softly that it was hard to get a balance with the vocals. One young gal started trying to sing but didn’t have the breath control to produce a resonant sound that quietly, the others just started walking out of the room. I watched this for about 3 minutes and finally stopped them bringing up three points. First, the solo singer never asked the guitarist to play any louder to help her so that she could sing in a better "space". Second, the singers that walked out of the room were never going to get anywhere if they weren’t willing to stay in the game and at least start – abdicating doesn’t move them forward and finally the guitarist – even though he is playing beautifully will never sound good in the group when he’s trying to do his own thing regardless of what the others are doing.

I don’t know exactly what music has to do with anything because I’m not performing anywhere – haven’t for over a year but I do know that it’s about starting, starting where I am right now and making the most of the "group" abilities.

That’s all that anyone can really ask of you or me. Just START.

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Dream Post – Doing it Alone

So last night the dreams went like this –

  • There is a table that seats 8 with a roulette wheel in the middle of it – the wood is very beautiful – a rich dark color, I have to go out for a little while and when I come back someone has found other pieces and redone the table. The table now seats 26 and it has a second tier on it with the wheel on a third tier. There is a lot of carving (design work) on the table – there is something about going to the water and when I come back someone has again redone the table but now it’s just a plain long table that seats maybe 12 or so. I am really upset that they took about all of the middle wood and the wheel and I think about the fact that I’d put it together myself if I could but the pieces are too awkward and heavy for me to do it by myself and that makes me even angrier.
  • The dream changes to being in a house where is a bathtub that has to be manually filled with water and we’re moving it into place to fill it up – then I’m at another place and I notice that it’s the same kind of configuration with a movable top. The next thing I know is that there are kids around. There is a little one that keeps getting messy and I can hardly keep up with where she is off to next. I almost throw her into an area where she can’t climb out before I can clean her up and she finds a way to get to some other tub like configuration full of toys.
  • Then I’m in a room there is something about quartets and having the top 5 quartets doing a part class so there would be 5 classes for leads, 5 for bari’s, 5 for tenor’s and 5 for bass’. Everyone seems to like the ideas and that’s when I wake up.

I must admit that there seems to be some challenge with the second two on meaning – but I believe I know what the first one is about. It has to do with the fact that I still don’t like to have to wait on other people to help me get something done. Worth looking at … :)

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Latest book and FEAR

This morning I’ve just completed the first draft of the book – actually it’s more of a short story but it is what I had in mind. It was more of a be open and accept that I’m supposed to write this because it’s something that is inside of me. NOT something that I feel comfortable with or even believed that I could ever do. I don’t have delusions of grandeur about it being revolutionary or anything incredibly profound – my goal is that it will be quick, simple reading that illustrates the value of "hope".

I’m sending it off to my daughter who is working with me to help me with the literary eloquence and to see the bigger picture – then we’ll look at doing the next one :)

This afternoon I’m putting the plan on paper so that I can get it to Adam and get his feedback.

A thought to share with you – one of the most common definitions of the word FEAR is that it’s an acronym for False Evidence Appearing Real. Consider this – if you "feel" your fear and it’s YOURS what does it feel like to invalidate it by having someone tell you it’s false? If I’m afraid – it’s very real. If illness is brought on by fear – the illness is very real and it can be life threatening. While it’s not a term that I would use in normal conversation I prefer to say that FEAR is a state when you want to F*** Everything And Run. The "run" manifests itself and panic attacks, depression, "excessive" sleep (only you know if it’s more than your physical body needs), lack in life and the list goes on. As I said – it’s food for thought. I personally choose to acknowledge and teach that the fear is very real to the person feeling it – the better choice might be to stick around and see what I can learn. (No I am NOT talking about hangout in a burning building just to see where the fear is coming from … but that is another story)

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True Purpose

  • PLAYING POKER; I’m sitting around a card table playing poker with 5 guys, I think it’s poker since I’m not really a card player. I’m dealing and for a while it’s just cards as usual, then there is something about the types or significance of the cards and betting that one person has an unusual card. It’s not betting on the hand. One or two of the guys fold their hands and for some reason one of the other guys gets up from the table to go look at something. That is when I notice that the guy on my right is tossing cards under the table and one hits my ankle. We keep playing cards. I’m watching him to see if he does it again and how he does it without anyone catching on then there is another card on the floor. I look at him and bend down to pick them up. No one is upset that he did that – it’s more of a curiosity as to why he wanted to do it. He’s talking about wanting to keep those particular cards. There is something about the deck that we’re playing with the value of certain individual cards. I don’t think he is telling the truth but one of the other guys shows me a card that the face of it is printed over – I think it was the 10 of spades. There are two columns of “white space” on the right hand side of the card. In one of the columns he’s written some kind of reference number and says that he knows this guy is telling the truth. Then we’re looking at the cards that have been on the ground – one of them has – “$1,000,000″ written on it in TINY print. There are others with similar oddities on them. These particular cards are worth a lot of money.
  • THE LOVE OF SINGING; The next thing I know is that I’m at some kind of singing competition. All of these individuals are auditioning for some production, maybe it’s a commercial but it’s a public production. There is a conveyor belt that people are standing on and as they approach the mic it’s their turn to perform. Some of them are OK singers, some could benefit from a few months of voice lessons while others are good. No one is really over the top. My sister Gloria, who is about 30 something in the dream, is the judge of who will go on to do this project and I’m sitting there beside her. I’m afraid to tell her that I really want to audition. I’m thinking how it’s not like Sweet Adelines where the timing of everyones performance has to be exact to “win”- I know I can do this. I believe that if I ask her it will put pressure on her and there is something else bothering me but I don’t know what it is. It isn’t until I DO say something that it becomes clear that I believe she doesn’t want me to be there because she wants to be able to do this on her own. There is something in the project that is about “her” and her capabilities and if I’m there I’ll just dominate the scene. Part of me understands and is trying to support her and the other part of me is struggling because I know that I can do this then I realize that it isn’t about her. It’s about just doing it and taking the chance. (My sister passed away just before her 16th birthday in 1981)
  • DRIVING THROUGH THE RAIN; Then I’m at some place where it’s raining and we’re in a building talking about driving. We have to leave the place, maybe it’s a hotel, and as I look out the window the water is rising everywhere. I don’t know if it’s such a good idea but I know we have to leave. As I’m watching I am aware that there is only one road to leave town. As people are driving they go through an area where it’s below water level. I watch as a white mini-van drives and the water is almost over the roof. It is only a short distance when it comes out the other side. Then I’m in some kind of school bus, we realize that several of the window are down and we have to close them before we get to that low spot in the road. I’m concerned because one of the windows closes from the top down because it’s not really sealed. I’m looking at the air space between the bottom of the window and the frame and the scene changes.
  • REMEMBER TO CALL YOUR MOM; The next thing I know is that I’m somewhere and I have a long coat on and in the pocket is my mom’s cell phone. We (all I know is that I’m not alone) are trying to figure out where she might be and finally I drive up to…somewhere and she is there. Somehow we had gone different ways and I had her phone in my pocket so she couldn’t call me. (My mom passed away the end of May this year)
  • PASSING THE TEST; Then I’m BACK at the building where the card game was and standing in some kind of hallway while there is one person standing at a big chalkboard writing answers to questions they are being asked. It’s a multiple choice series of questions. As each person finishes they are told how they did then they erase the board and call the next person into the room. I’m walking around still in the hall/foyer. There is a door that leads to a garage that is standing open. I see a small black convertible drive in and the car has some pink flame like decals on the sides. I go out to see whose car it is but by the time I get through the doorway the owner has parked the car and is gone. In the meantime another person I know, JN is parking her car; she gets out and uses some kind of remote control to drive it into some kind of storage area. The wall of the parking space in front of her rises and the car drives inside. She’s concerned that it will hit the front bumper so she goes in to check on it and it’s fine. I’m thinking that it’s pretty cool to have a remote control to park your car so one doesn’t have to worry about being able to get out of the car AFTER it is parked in some tight spot. I go back in the hallway because it’s going to be my turn directly. I’m standing in front of some kind of counter and looking at a decanter – actually looking through the decanter to the glowing tiles on the wall. I’m semi caught up in how the different colors and glass make patterns of light and texture as well as being aware that I can see through the door to the chalkboard where the person going before me is writing the answers to the test. I’m afraid that I won’t pass. I find myself trying to memorize their answer sequence feeling guilty because it’s cheating while at the same time knowing that it won’t help because I know their questions and mine will be different. As I walk into the room I know that the questions will be about what I owned from the movie, Peaceful Warrior, things that I’ve learned in studying Authentic Reiki (R) aka The Radiance Technique, what I’ve understood from the Bible as well as what I believe. I’m supposed to know all of these answers and I am afraid that I won’t pass the test.

So one of the reasons that it’s been so long since I’ve posted anything – I realized that since I’ve started putting these up – I believe that I’m “supposed” to have something to contribute every day. I will be letting people down if I don’t. The two nights prior to this dream have netted me a total of two pictures.

  • First one three nights ago is that I’m looking at myself crawling around on the floor with some big, thick soled shoes on and thinking about how uncomfortable those would be to walk in.
  • The second night I am sitting talking to a man in clown face make-up.

All of this after more than a week of dreams where I would wake up and not be able to come up with one word.

I’m not sure what all of this is saying yet. I know it has to do with one path – I just don’t see the whole picture right now.

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Planes and Trains and Automobiles

  • I’m living in an apartment or ??? on the 15th floor – and working on getting things organized. At one point I’m looking at 4 different bicycles in Dan’s room. Ar another point in time I am going to sit down and there is a couch and a chair (there is other furniture too but these are the two pieces that stand out) the chair is like an old folding chair and has the padding torn off, it’s not like it is frayed or anything it’s just bare metal and it’s bright yellow. I’m looking at the chair and I know that I don’t want to sit there so I look around and there is a couch. The couch is covered in red much like the stretch covers you buy for automobile seats. I go over to it and sit down and it’s very comfortable.
    At one point I remember thinking about the fact that I have a heliport on the roof and I’m thinking about the how strong it is and how much weight the roof can hold.

We spent a lot of time traveling this weekend and talking about business and how we would travel and I think that this is all part of that – a sense of sorting through it all and needing to complete getting things cleaned up.

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Down on the Farm

  • Last night I dreamed that I was in some town there were some guys working on our farm equipment and other people working in a field of … something? Corn maybe – maybe they were sun flowers. All I’m really sure of here is that they were fairly tall plants. I’m walking through the area wearing a blue dress with the white and blue sweater and I’m bare foot.  I’m also not walking alone – there’s a guy with me – it seems that it was PW. I’m looking for a girl that I know has taken off and when I find her she is upset that "he’s coming". She doesn’t want to see him. I’m talking to her telling her that it’ll be OK – once she sees him they can work things out and she’ll be able to move on but she doesn’t believe me. It isn’t like she is hysterical or anything – it’s more that her countenance is heavy. I wake up as she sits down.

So this one I actually looked up some meanings to see what is out there and the field – whether it is corn or sunflowers is a sign of prosperity – with respect to the sunflower it is also about spirituality. It’s interesting to note that the barefoot search gave me two opposite ideas – either difficulties to overcome or a light hearted playfulness. I actually think that there is a more of the latter – the former, difficulties, are about just trusting the journey and the desire to have it all yesterday :)

I think that the girl is another part of me and that there is still something to look at inside that once I really confront it I’ll own it and be done with it.

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Everything in it’s Place

It seems that lately my dreams and my life have been crossing over each other. The last two nights I’ve dreamed about "getting organized" night before last all I remember was looking around at all of the "stuff" and last night – it actually was pretty cool – I’m in a room looking around and I have a clip board in my hands. There are other people there and everything I’m looking at is put away and nice and neat. Trust me, that is a first! But it was all very clean feeling – it felt like I could really relax and knew what to do next as well as how to do it and where everything was that I needed to accomplish the tasks.

I’ll be interviewing Jessica Duquette on the radio show, Freedom Factor’s and the interview is "It’s Not About Your Stuff, Freedom from the draining energy in your environment". You can find out more about Jessica by clicking here It’s not about your stuff!. The broadcast will be delayed due to technical difficulties – like the studio ended up closed for the week!

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And the floods arose

Well as I posted in the Freedom blog I’ve been away for a retreat and remember little of my dreams having been up late and early and either sleeping hard or hardly at all. Last night I had many dreams only to wake up and loose many by not immediately writing them down.

  • The last one had to do with being in a house near the beach and talking about what was happening and commenting on the tide coming in with the water on the front porch.

I can still see the gentle splashing of the waves and knowing it wasn’t going to come inside but there was still a sense of needing to do something.

As I think about this it seems funny – one of the insights this weekend had to do with the realization that I have believed that I must "do" to "be" even though I have talked about knowing that it doesn’t work that way. It’s as if I thought that I could "do" something to stem the hand of God – not :) Thank goodness.

I look forward to the remembering and seeing what my dreams have to say :)

See you tomorrow…

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